Last night a thought or two passed through-- "I cannot be in a relationship. I cannot have one." I knew I was beginning to feel fear. I felt the urge to end a relationship for no logical reason. Something deep triggered me and it felt great-- however, it came with a thick layer of fear and rejection.

As I realized this, I knew I was crazy, and this is my way of pushing people away. I renounced that, and told myself to get a grip and let it go.