Catching up

I suppose I have not kept you up-to-date with- or how things are. I'm sorry. :)

First, I have been excited that I can go to school in the spring. I have taken the placement tests, signed up for financial aid, spoke with a counselor, and made an "educational plan" for my major in radiology. The same day we spoke, I registered for five classes, and in mid-spring, I would have to speak with one of the radiology counselors and talk about transferring for neuroradiology.

Unfortunately, I had to drop my classes (all of them), and wait until fall to go to college. Why did I do this (I was deeply upset and angry)? Well, one of my roommates (my friend's husband) was angry with me because I was not taking more hours at work. Hence, he wants me to pay an extra $100 for rent, and go to work full-time. Couldn't I just go to school at nights, after work? Sounds good, however, I do not have a car, nor a license to drive! (I am hoping I take the test soon. Everyone is too busy to teach me. I can drive-- however; I do not have enough experience on the road or freeways. :( ).

At the moment, Justin (the new guy I spoke of in the previous entry) and his parents are helping me look for a place...

My mom and I spoke. She and my step dad want to help. They are thinking, A) My mom, my step dad, my brother and I move to Vegas, and he will work at a casino; or B) my mom, my brother and I can find a place here, and my step dad will pay our rent. I am thinking I want to work full time too, just in case, and go to school at night. My mom disagrees-- she wants me to focus on school, and work part-time. She will work. I have been stressed over this, but as long as I get my mind off it for most of the day, I can handle it just fine.

One of (and perhaps the only) reasons why I have not been keeping up to date is because I have been spending a lot of my time with Justin and his family. For the second reason, when I did have the time, I could not get my thoughts straight; and third, I could not find the time and space I needed for clarity.

For Thanksgiving, I spent it at his aunt's house. It was amazing. Funny thing is I was laughing so much I had an asthma attack. They took care of me though, and it was the first time he called me "babe," so it was cute.
For Christmas, I was going to be alone. They invited me (and my roommate) over and we played games, ate a lot of food, and of course, opened presents. I felt very spoiled and touched.

I still talk to Sean. In fact, I spent the day with him and Jesse when he got off work. It is nice that we are able to talk and laugh together, still. My feelings for him are only friendly. I do care about him and he still cares for me; however, that is far as it will go. We cannot see ourselves together, again. Justin is fine with it. He trusts me, although he does worry. I do not blame him, I trust him; however, I worry over his long-time friend and him. I won't get into that, though.

Hm, it's not a detailed post, but it is something. :)