I'm not sure.

I'm not sure why my heart feels so heavy. I feel at peace, I have joy, and I am happy. 

But something is not sitting well on my heart. Something feels... lost. 

"What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ" -Philippians 3:8